When was the last time you really had a conversation with yourself? For me it’s constant. My brain is always synapsing. I hear myself talk in my head as I process every thought that buzzes around inside of it. I spend every waking moment with myself. I’ve come to know myself very well, and I notice immediately when something feels off balance. I’m analytical, and I piece apart the reasons as to why I feel certain ways. There are two sides to my soul that feed off of each other; the feeler and the thinker. These traits are like twins. They mirror each other while still being independent. Sometimes they conflict, and sometimes they come together in beautiful harmony and friendship.
I’ve always felt deeply connected to my Gemini zodiac sign, and being aware of the symmetry of my internal equilibrium has only solidified that. I am a dualistic person, and I strive for balance in any situation. I know this about myself because I am willing to self-reflect in an honest manner. I enjoy my own company. I feed off of the many types of internal energy I feel within myself. I lift my own mood without relying on others. I'm honestly my own best friend and I feel connected to my own soul. It excites me to be who I am.
I feel inspired to share this with you because I feel that self-meditation is a practice we can all benefit from. I know there are so many people in pain in this world and plenty more who have not been inspired to think about themselves or the world in abstract ways. Or perhaps they have lost the confidence to do so. I have known pain, and ignorance, and bliss, and I have known what it feels like to be enlightened. We are never done growing or feeling, so I urge you to open your mind and strive to look at yourself from your own perspective. You control how you go through life. Allow yourself to feel every emotion your brain is triggered by. Not only by the ones given by others but also the ones you give to yourself.
I choose to be happy today. I want to be full of joy and life. The things that weigh on me can be lightened, detached from the moment. And yours can too. Blast some music, be open to new experiences, have conversations and be inspired by people, do something creative, believe in yourself and learn new things, be curious about everything. If you feel out of balance, add something to your life from the other end of the spectrum. Stay in tune with yourself. There are always going to be shadows that follow us, but I find that the best inspiration to lessen their stretch can be found with the happiness we allow ourselves to know.